Wednesday, January 28, 2004
well...i actually skipped practical and tut all at the same time.GawD!!!and do you like wanna know y?its just that ive been feeling kinda freak out this few days over all the weird stuff thats have been happening to me.. not that its weird.thats just putting it mildly...tell you the truth,its sucks!!!big time...not only shocking but it hurts to know at the same time....it really makes me step back and reconsider wat the hell im reali feeling...
not that its shameful and stuff but rather whether ive made the correct choices in my life..
maybe im maturing..god knoes wat the hell is that..all this while ive been hiding behind the perception of knowing wateva i do and why but now...im so muddle-headed...i just kant think straight...and i definately kant study with this overexcessive mind...i feel like gaia....maybe theres a part of me thats is rather similar to her...only that i think that she is much much smarter than me and much much braver than me,...fine i know tat im bein patheticaly ridiculous and u guys,whoever u are,are tinking,wat the hell is my problem???
tell u tha truth,me myself do not know why im feeling like this..ive never feel so unsure,so not myself...
maybe i was wrong about myself the whole time that im alive...now its suddenly taking a different route.but i wont know whether this the right one for me...
have u watch The last samurai??if u have maybe u will feel the way i am rite now..only that now,apart from my sentimental feelings about the movie,i have other problem rite now in my head...
going bonkers?=maybe..crazy?=not yet...guilty??=definately...but wat im trying to say is,im goin to take things slowly...one step at a time...i hope that i have that much time though....
peace...
3:50:00 PM
