Friday, May 04, 2007
ive got a date.hehe...neway...i decided that they r still madly in love wit each other..i guez..wats wit the earing wit the letter t??hmmmm.......deception n lies corrupting the cruel mind...provoking the endless debacle of the shameless soul...patience stop short at the slightest temptation...the mind of the weak transforms eventually somehow to the slow rythem of classic debate of the heart mind n soul...eagerness steps down at the slippery surface of the covered truths..smiles turns fake as the slow turnover of the lies uncovers, leaving behind the messy trails of an amateur.astonishment of such continues with the discovery of hidden knows...unbeknownst n kept apart from the obvious...wishes n dreams coinside into one huge debacle of the head n such of the future looks...but somehow the bleakness of the nutingness continues for the ponder igniting the frustration from the lack of fearlessness inside...temptations desiring the deliciously tempting palate ruins the whole game of chasing...damage of the chase still brews fresh and the palate still looks piping hot but the overshadowing desire fell thru n crashes deep within the inner mind...makin a spectacle of oneself isnt the way to satisfy the unknown curiosity lest it will bring about smt far much more worse than the existent of the current motion...
12:58:00 AM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
hey....nw its 3rd of may 2007...n so many changes happend in my life...im unsure of whether im spose to be sad or happy for the changes that is happening but i guez dat changes happends for a reason...
the pic...she is my bestie..currently... we work at the same place nw...im glad to have her as a fren but i guez its not vice versa..we fought n suddenly things gone different nw...wat wit our other colleagues that we have nw...they are the ones that causes our misery n the disputes at wk..haix...i want to carry on wkin thr but the politics btwn the management and all juz breaks my confidence...i wanna go back to sch but i didnt get accepted at any institute n my heart juz crash n burns...
adult life juz sucks big tym...i mean i guez im juz unprepared for the uncertainties that im gg thru ryte nw....ryte nw, i know that everythings gg to chg n im talking lyk major chges...
super major...work, friendship, family and lastly love...the one that occupies 300% of my mind 24/7...
i was cleaning teater ytd n i saw a couple kissing...n i got myself outrage over nuting....
deep in my mind, im looking at smt wich i yearn for to happen to me from the person that im realli loving most even tho we r not even close to be tgt again...
abt my love, i guez im restraining...i mean, its lyk so obvious that i kant be the better one compared to the previous one...i juz got sick to the stomach tinking that if i didnt enter in her life, they will still be openly tgt n i guez, i wun be this hurt.. or shud i say, if i didnt fall in love wit her...
regrettion is due but wats the use of restraining smt wich is beyond my control..
currently she has a problem n im tryin to be by her side helping to solve it..
she use to say that she wants to achieve evrything in her life ist..her dreams n all...b4 tinkin abt rship...saying that she isnt ready for it n all..it breaks my heart dearly coz the yearning is too gr8..the wat if's crosses my mind running thru lyk a mad chase...
im mad chasing over smt wich i dun even knw whether even care if im even walking.
2:49:00 AM
pseudohermaphrodite-
One that possesses the internal reproductive organs of one sex while exhibiting some of the external physical characteristics of the opposite sex.
—Related forms
am·big·u·ous·ly, adverb
am·big·u·ous·ness, noun
—Synonyms 1. ambiguous, equivocal, cryptic, enigmatic describe conditions or statements not clear in meaning. ambiguous can refer to a statement, act, or attitude that is capable of two or more often contradictory interpretations, usually accidentally or unintentionally so: an ambiguous passage in the preamble. equivocal, usually applied to spoken as well as written language, also means susceptible of two or more interpretations, and it usually suggests a deliberate intent to mislead by avoiding clarity: saving face with an equivocal response to an embarrassing question. cryptic usually refers to intentional obscurity, especially in language, and often implies a private or hidden meaning but stresses resultant mystification or puzzlement: a cryptic remark that left us struggling to interpret his intention. enigmatic focuses on perplexity resulting from a mysterious or imponderable event or utterance, often one of great importance or deep significance: prophetic texts so enigmatic that their meaning has been disputed for centuries. 3. dubious, vague, indeterminate, unclassifiable, anomalous. 4. puzzling, enigmatic, problematic.
—Antonyms 1. explicit. 3. certain. 4. clear, precise, unambiguous.
hom·o·nym·ic, adjective
hom·o·nym·i·ty, noun
—Synonyms 1, 2, 3. Homonym, homophone, and homograph designate words that are identical to other words in spelling or pronunciation, or both, while differing from them in meaning and usually in origin. Homophones are words that sound alike, whether or not they are spelled differently. The words pear “fruit,” pare “cut off,” and pair “two of a kind” are homophones that are different in spelling; bear “carry; support” and bear “animal” are homophones that are spelled alike. Homographs are words that are spelled identically but may or may not share a pronunciation. Spruce “tree” and spruce “neat” are homographs, but so are row /roʊ/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[roh] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation “line” and row /raʊ/[rou] “fight” as well as sewer /ˈsuər/[soo-er] “conduit for waste” and sewer /ˈsoʊər/[soh-er] “person who sews.” Homonyms are, in the strictest sense, both homophones and homographs, alike in spelling and pronunciation, as the two forms bear. Homonym, however, is used more frequently than homophone, a technical term, when referring to words with the same pronunciation without regard to spelling. Homonym is also used as a synonym of homograph. Thus, it has taken on a broader scope than either of the other two terms and is often the term of choice in a nontechnical context.
2:40:00 AM
pseudohermaphrodite-