Tuesday, February 24, 2009
sunshine = kejora.
heh.
im dissapointed with my partner. just sad to see their reaction.
accept my baby in my life. she is not gg anywhere.
they are being unfair to just shun her away just like that.
i changed. but im gonna changed even more if they are gonna be extra cruel to me. to us.
as i say, its me against the world.
its us against the world.
dun push ur luck too far. its not gg anywhere.
make my life difficult and im gonna make urs worse.
trust me.
10:21:00 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
tenzerotwozeronine.
i love you.
alot.
will u be mine forever?
promise to treat u right. promise to be by ur side.
be there when u need me and console u when ur angry.
cheers to us.
this is just the beginning baby.
more happiness soon to come.
thanks for being by my side when i need u.
i love you doll..
10:19:00 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
at this moment im super tired. damn tired. many2 feelings combined together into one. i wanna feel for myself. think for myself. will i be able to? so many things i wanna sae to LOVE. so many churning tots at this moment in time. im tired. tired tired and tired of figuring other people whom im just afraid to hurt anymore. but i wanna think for myself now. put myself ist in front of others. make myself happy ist. make myself think for myself. there are things that i see that i dun wish to ask, dun wish to figure out on my own. i wanna get sum1 to sort the mess in my head for me but for what. to get myself being dumb again? im so dumb. will i be dumb again? LOVE has people around to take care of. sum1 to notice when her mood changes. i notice. i always notice and always try to make things better for others. but for once in the freak of my life, can sum1 notice the change in my feelings? the changes in my gestures. or wud i rather the change of hurt in my heart. my already hurt heart. i love u. im sincere. but take care of my heart? be honest to me in the changes in urs? do u know how much it hurts to know that in some way or another, i hurt u? im so sorry baby. im so sorry. i dun wan anyone to be mad at me. especially not u. i know who i am, who i have. i dun have frens who loves me but i have frens who care enuf for me. take care of my heart? thats the only thing i ask of u now.
10:45:00 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009
i dunno whether to believe. trust. disbelieve. honesty. its all in a package. the sudden silence. the sorrow of emptiness. its a huge hollow. eating me up. m i losing alot? will i lose it all?
im afraid. realli.
3:13:00 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
ive found you. now. when maybe the time is right. wrong situation but the feeling is right. sitting here beside a new found fren, a new found earlistener, u came. like the song halo, the song which i dedicate to u. u came, with a halo around u. like the song goes, the walls are tumbling down, and they did not even put up a fight. unsure if u may not be the right person, may not treat me as right as i wish but i wanna try. im comfortable with u. i feel like u can be my other half. are u? i wish hard upon the deep heart of mid which have been broken over and over again unknowingly. it hurts and it still hurts. will u make tings better? as u said, u wanna settle down. me too. i did not search, or google for you. u just came doll. u just appear. there smiling. a smile is what i need. u. melt my heart there and then. time doesnt matter.heart does. im yours? ur mine. dun break my heart. if u do, i will be dumbfound. i will stop loving.stop believing in love. enirely. cox im tired and i dun wanna fight for anyting else except for pure happiness.=)) today.the ten of feb. life reborn. happiness starts.
3:34:00 PM
