Monday, February 16, 2004
im now at the library.juz finish doing my csas term test...nak cakap susah,tak...weird ade ar...
now my boyfriend is studying wit his frens..padahal im the one yang nak blajar sey.but ma frens nak balek and got other commitments..padahal padahal...
tmr got maths and im not prepared at all...teruk habes..
tak tau pun ape nak blajar...and worst of all!!!!i have to werk later...argh!!!!!!!!
anyway,yesterday watch moulin rouge at channel five.was so captivated dat i didnt realize that i was crying throughout the whole show...emo dok...
eh,banyak seh orang pat library nie..tak tau nak pegi blajar ke ah org2 nie semue..
well,saw lex luthor aka mr halis at the library.apparently i know him but he doesnt know me...cacat and abit paisey...
i had wanted to talk about love in this blog but dunno y no mood...
sooooooo..noisy...
oopss..si lex look in my direction.takut lak nanti dier cam...hahaha
paranoid shit.
nutin to write ar...
*love you honey*
1:27:00 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
juz visited others profiles in everyonesconnected and it seems that they are like so cool..they have like so many pictures and i dun have anything at all sampai nurul zawanah,a friend,commented that i update them..
cacat sey...its not that i dun wan but i juz dun have a pc at home!!!ade pun its like so rosak and kalau tak rosak pun i dun have net connections....i know that i frequently add in blogs and stuff but i do it from skewl!!!!really....if u dun believe me,for the nx two weeks,there will be less of my entries....
but still,i feel compelled to at least add in ma own photos and those of my frens..gerek kan!!!
haiz......i guess i juz dun have the ability to do it..maybe not now but later..later???when will that be...
juz now went to pipc..was laughing so hard that miss yip,our tutor,was like,"shema,shhhhh...."
tapi ape nak uat sey..the guys from chem engine(the kewl chinese bloke and the two azmies) were like totally pissing off miss yip and making jokes about almost everything that she says.....kekek sey...
then me,hajar and khadijah(a sweet gerl) was like talking about whether we can pass our term test this time...
and we were like so freak out coz if we didnt pass this time,we will be kicked out of this damn skool!!!
seram eh!!!
teruk ar....and im like not prepared at all for next week ...argh!!!!!!!!
neway,all of them seems such nice ppl to be wit..at least i got to laugh alot!!and understand the concepts of topic 1 to 3..hope i pass well this time....
wah...im like so hungry now...im like waiting for my boyfriend to finish his arts lecs...tadi mamam pat rumah at about 11.30 and didnt ate lunch wit him..konon kenyang la tu....tapi skrg,adui!!!!!!lapar doks.....
tak leh carry sey..type pun tak larat..(bedek la...hiakhaha)
hahaha....lol..but watever it is..ive got nothing more to type...
look arnd for inspirations...and found none..so,gotta go!!!!!!!!!!
6:06:00 PM
now at the pc lab at level 5...the damn mouse is like so rosak sey...so selenge....anyway,tadi i actually miss almost all the lectures..only went for anp last hour lecture..to pun because my bf ade arts..he told me dun have and he wanna like teman me till 4 but in the end i hav to go to my lec ALONE!!!hear that,ALONE!!!
teruk sey..luckily anp was fun..studying about blood was fun...hahaha
then lex luthor sent me a mail through everyones connected..cool sey...
still dunno who he is ar...
anyway,gotta go....so short ar but gotta go...
*bye-bye*
3:17:00 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
now im in the library doing nuting but juz shitting arnd in my blog.now then i know that the world is actually a very small place to live in..hahaha
my darling knows this guy name mamat from his class,mamat knows this guy named amar from info technology sch,hafizah,my classmate and my buddy,knows amar through some chat tingy if im not wrong...what a total coincidence!!and after all those,me and amar still havent talk before even though we look at each other whenever we pass by each other and its really very frequent...weird world.
not dat i mengharapkan or what la tapi tak ganjil ke??da la terserempak dengan the same person like almost so many times in that particular week and days but still tak at least senyum..kekek seh...
boring sey...later got pipc and oc..the two damn irritating subjects that i have to retake...argh!!!
got quiz lak tuh...stress!and im still here typing away like hell runs loose...
damn everyting....
kinda miss hanging out with friends.real friends.really wonder where all of them went too...
mesti dah maju eh..ade life sendiri...problem sendiri...hai....ape nak buat.
when i read others blog about the time that they spent with their friends.rindu rabak sey...miss bitching around about others...hiakhaha...
well,right about now,i really wish that i were to have someone to be my bestfriend..cool kan kalau ade bestfriend???i mean,i have my bf to be my bestfriend but still.......its different...
but what the heck!!!i still have my own shitty life to care about rather than care having a bestfriend..
what a shallow minded person ive been in that few minutes....tsk tsk...
whatever it is.wanna shout out to my friends that i miss real bad.
shafizah,wherever u are,good luck in your life...
ronny,its nice having u around in my life back then...
ayu,nice being and bitching with u..haha
mad-mad,really miss talking with you...we sort of be apart after u get together with kevin..
kevin,nice goofing around with you..too bad things didnt work out between us and we eventually turn our back against each other...
yunur,god!!!i miss you but we really never talk ever since we separated from sec 2 huh?
will be continue..
*gotta run for class..im late!!!*
2:14:00 PM
Monday, February 09, 2004
well...wat a day to start of with....woke up late and had to skip my anp practical...still havent see my lecturer..neway,went to bedok reservoir to eat lunch with my bf...then saw the girl dat my bf like b4...im like so normal,with no teruk jealousy coming up at all....but he was like singing the shuddup song all the way and when he saw her,he sort of like gagap for a moment and his face berubah and became red..like he is happy to see her after so long and is embarrassed by her presence...WTF!!!
i was so pissed off when he told me who dat person is in the bus...i mean.after seeing his reaction,which hell of a girlfriend wouldnt feel anyting sey...i am human too pe...i kant possibly lie to myself that im not feeling anything right.??!!!totally un-like me to get fed up over this sort after so long...
anyway,just now had csas
presentation and im like so sukky...i was so nervous and i totally stumble word after word.my mind juz wasnt there...
wat a life...totally sicko mind in an endless trouble sinking deeper slowly and slowly without anyone to save me from all this shit.
whatever life maybe,whatever outcomes lies ahead,life will still remains...a soul rekindle,lovers unite,soulmates part....so tired of being here...wish that u will breathe,wish that the love will remain, wish that it will neverend...but life will always contradict to the feelings of the heart and the feelings of the time..
running and running away but the shadow of the pain still lingers..it wont leave me alone..when will it be erase..when will it be gone into the darkness of the shadow?
the voice,the face,the touch,the memories...
how could i fight away....long as it might seems, time seems to gets shorter every moment..waiting..but for what?waiting for the return,or waiting for the end???
2:58:00 PM
Friday, February 06, 2004
well,i just told my boyfriend the truth..it really take off the weight of my heavy shoulders...tsk tsk...one of this days,i will jot down everything dat happen to all of u guys who is clueless of this thing....
anyway,now at his house jotting this important fact while patiently waiting for him to finish his bath......
so,term test is like two weeks from now and im like so involved with the stuff dats so going on at my workplace right now...
hai...not surprising if i do not do well in my studies but what the heck....
im not good anyway....
im just bullshitting everyone about the stuff that im studying right now.....
not as if im good but just that i manage to at least understand the basic....
tsk tsk....my course suks.....as in the burden of hatred that i have for some subjects and some stupid lecturers...
well,i guess thats life anyway..u have to like smt and dun like smt the next time... human instinct.
and now,my other half of my human instinct has emerged from the bathroom n somehow transform himself from the 'out of bed look' to 'lets get going look'....im so dumfounded just by looking at him that somehow i forgot where am i and what im doing and...what the hell am i writing...better go now....
*muacks to my honey*
5:36:00 PM
Thursday, February 05, 2004
now im at the sch library...literally accompany hajar for her test and at the same time,waiting for my hubby....
im so fed up actually coz i couldnt get off on valentines day!!!!!damn....
i really donnoe whether to be pissed of or not...
just now,i was late for my pract but it turns out that it was a waste of time going there..
neway,know its short but really gotta go...
shout out to *hajar!!!good luck in her tests later....
**my darling come already...gotta go...
so sorie...hahahaha
2:54:00 PM
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
gosh.....my brain is going bonkers soon....man!!maths is reali killing me alive...and later i have biochemistry..
gawd....dun actuali know wat im reali studying...and anp,tsk tsk..now im entering my blog instead of attending the anp lectures...so bad right??
sometimes i reali regret not entering junior college.i mean,if i had entered jc,i wouldnt be this slag...
i could have been very disciplined...haha..not sure whether i could ever be disciplined...
tsk tsk....
later i have to go down to the restaurant to settle some reali serious stuff..
gawd!!!nowadays,my life seems to be more involved in work rather than school....
must stop it rightaway....
haha... now im at the library writing this neverending blog and theres like alot of people surrounding me that seems to be waiting for the use of the pc...i reali feel guilty coz god knows whether they reali need it more than me...
while here i am,pouring out my soul to the poor keyboard...
aniways,i reali havent invited anybody to read my blog but juz wanna shout out to all my fwens out there..if u treat me as one tho...all my sec sch frens!!!!!!!and my poly frens!!!!!!!!!n my workmates!!!!!!
get jiggy guys!!!
*n a special shout out to my hubby!!!!i love u baby....*
2:03:00 PM
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
god dammit!!!!!wats up wit meeeeeeeeeeee??????
i should hav seen it cuming rite??!!once blind,always short-sighted....
gawd...wat m i getting myself into>>>
shit,shit,shit!!!
damn!!
eeeee!!!geramnye....rabakz.
12:29:00 PM
