why do life have to be so complicated....im confused nw....neway, i always have an inferiority complex in myself....i have such a low self esteem....used to be lower...but currently my self esteem and my confidence seems to be in the shits...never a moment in my mind do i think that im much more worth than other girls....i never see myself as sumone wich ppl will ever fall in like wit....maybe my personality but never my outer appearence...but why do that certain sumone makes me feel as if im the most beautiful girl but at the same tym, makes me think twice of the way i am??? how cud one single person makes me feel so confuse all at one tym.... at tyms she makes me feel like she wants me but at tyms she makes me feel like she jus wanna be frens wit me.....my head seems to be bursting...... the feelings that im havin is new.smt wich i nvr felt before..but im feeling smt...smt nice...esp wenever we are together.....i feel that the time that we spend together is short even tho its like for hours n days n weeks....and the time that we r apart seems to be so long and dreadful.. but truth be told, we already told each other our undying love for each other....which is obvious that im not the only one wich feels the same way...but that only makes the situation worse.. i mean, we r not even together but we look like we r having smt....n the sweet kisses were like honey to my lips.....i dunno....the situation is complicated already.... she broke up wit her n me wit him, haix....i dunno wat to say le...... i wunder will it end or will it ever start..i dunno wat to wait for and i dunno wat to expect... i just hope that i wun end up hurting and i wun hurt anyone.
12:40:00 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
hello....its 2006 and im like oready 20years old......im soooo old.... alot of things are changing but the most impt thing that change is my heart...i like another instead but im still in love wit sum1 else.how like dat??? neway, im sleepy....i update another tym...but thank god i still found u sey...
