Monday, February 09, 2004
well...wat a day to start of with....woke up late and had to skip my anp practical...still havent see my lecturer..neway,went to bedok reservoir to eat lunch with my bf...then saw the girl dat my bf like b4...im like so normal,with no teruk jealousy coming up at all....but he was like singing the shuddup song all the way and when he saw her,he sort of like gagap for a moment and his face berubah and became red..like he is happy to see her after so long and is embarrassed by her presence...WTF!!!
i was so pissed off when he told me who dat person is in the bus...i mean.after seeing his reaction,which hell of a girlfriend wouldnt feel anyting sey...i am human too pe...i kant possibly lie to myself that im not feeling anything right.??!!!totally un-like me to get fed up over this sort after so long...
anyway,just now had csas
presentation and im like so sukky...i was so nervous and i totally stumble word after word.my mind juz wasnt there...
wat a life...totally sicko mind in an endless trouble sinking deeper slowly and slowly without anyone to save me from all this shit.
whatever life maybe,whatever outcomes lies ahead,life will still remains...a soul rekindle,lovers unite,soulmates part....so tired of being here...wish that u will breathe,wish that the love will remain, wish that it will neverend...but life will always contradict to the feelings of the heart and the feelings of the time..
running and running away but the shadow of the pain still lingers..it wont leave me alone..when will it be erase..when will it be gone into the darkness of the shadow?
the voice,the face,the touch,the memories...
how could i fight away....long as it might seems, time seems to gets shorter every moment..waiting..but for what?waiting for the return,or waiting for the end???
2:58:00 PM
