Thursday, May 03, 2007
hey....nw its 3rd of may 2007...n so many changes happend in my life...im unsure of whether im spose to be sad or happy for the changes that is happening but i guez dat changes happends for a reason...
the pic...she is my bestie..currently... we work at the same place nw...im glad to have her as a fren but i guez its not vice versa..we fought n suddenly things gone different nw...wat wit our other colleagues that we have nw...they are the ones that causes our misery n the disputes at wk..haix...i want to carry on wkin thr but the politics btwn the management and all juz breaks my confidence...i wanna go back to sch but i didnt get accepted at any institute n my heart juz crash n burns...
adult life juz sucks big tym...i mean i guez im juz unprepared for the uncertainties that im gg thru ryte nw....ryte nw, i know that everythings gg to chg n im talking lyk major chges...
super major...work, friendship, family and lastly love...the one that occupies 300% of my mind 24/7...
i was cleaning teater ytd n i saw a couple kissing...n i got myself outrage over nuting....
deep in my mind, im looking at smt wich i yearn for to happen to me from the person that im realli loving most even tho we r not even close to be tgt again...
abt my love, i guez im restraining...i mean, its lyk so obvious that i kant be the better one compared to the previous one...i juz got sick to the stomach tinking that if i didnt enter in her life, they will still be openly tgt n i guez, i wun be this hurt.. or shud i say, if i didnt fall in love wit her...
regrettion is due but wats the use of restraining smt wich is beyond my control..
currently she has a problem n im tryin to be by her side helping to solve it..
she use to say that she wants to achieve evrything in her life ist..her dreams n all...b4 tinkin abt rship...saying that she isnt ready for it n all..it breaks my heart dearly coz the yearning is too gr8..the wat if's crosses my mind running thru lyk a mad chase...
im mad chasing over smt wich i dun even knw whether even care if im even walking.
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