Sunday, February 15, 2009
at this moment im super tired. damn tired. many2 feelings combined together into one. i wanna feel for myself. think for myself. will i be able to? so many things i wanna sae to LOVE. so many churning tots at this moment in time. im tired. tired tired and tired of figuring other people whom im just afraid to hurt anymore. but i wanna think for myself now. put myself ist in front of others. make myself happy ist. make myself think for myself. there are things that i see that i dun wish to ask, dun wish to figure out on my own. i wanna get sum1 to sort the mess in my head for me but for what. to get myself being dumb again? im so dumb. will i be dumb again? LOVE has people around to take care of. sum1 to notice when her mood changes. i notice. i always notice and always try to make things better for others. but for once in the freak of my life, can sum1 notice the change in my feelings? the changes in my gestures. or wud i rather the change of hurt in my heart. my already hurt heart. i love u. im sincere. but take care of my heart? be honest to me in the changes in urs? do u know how much it hurts to know that in some way or another, i hurt u? im so sorry baby. im so sorry. i dun wan anyone to be mad at me. especially not u. i know who i am, who i have. i dun have frens who loves me but i have frens who care enuf for me. take care of my heart? thats the only thing i ask of u now.
10:45:00 PM
