Thursday, April 02, 2009
somehow or rather at this moment, i really hope that i did not make any wrong decisions. there is so much to feel, so much to think atop a sleepy head, screw loose dance banging feet.
gosh. what's with work, money, politcs, my own heart and the pure jealousy of the love one.
i just dunno what to think that suddenly, i became someone that im not. i became cruel, heartless, cranky, uncared and dun care at all. n i just push away the only person who wants to care. her. unintended. but mine. nw. uncertainties carries alot of pressure. in alot of ways. i start to dare myself to love her. i tried. n yes, i hope that i will succeed. pray hard that something good will come out of it. im tired of trying. too tired. n nw im literally tired, physically.
i miss myself. i wanna be myself. n i hope that i will be that person that i use to love first b4 i learn how to love others.
4:37:00 PM
